Mental check-in part 1

We get back to this fun yet not-so-fun place where we ask ourselves who we are…

Do we base the answer on who we’ve been before?
Do we base the answer on what we know even if the context is different?
Do we refer to what we’ve been told even if it differs from what we know?
Do we lean into our feelings or do we not – are they truly valid or are they just lies we tell ourselves?
Who are you?
Are you what and who you’re attached to?
Are you the knowledge you have of yourself or the perceptions people share of you?
Are you really you if you’ve been so heavily influenced by everything the world has to offer?
I was a child before – now I’m an adult practising autonomy seeking meaning over my life
I was funny before – now I’m questioning my sense of humour and asking myself why I feel the need to make the kind of  jokes I do
I was social before – now I shy away from social spaces, I shy from idly and passively engaging with people for the sake of it
I was nice before – now I don’t sieve my emotions, I respect the line between my likes and dislikes and bite when you dare cross it
I was open before – now I lean into reservation, I find myself reading the room before uttering any speech
I was loud before – now I realise just how precious my voice is, I can’t get myself to spend energy if it’s not worthy of my engagement
I was quick to act before – now I prioritise taking my time, I like to think through and actually make my own decision on what I wanna do next
I was growing before – now I’m maturing, deeply processing the things I’ve been through  and not just rushing through experiences
I’m at a fun yet not-so-fun place where I’m meeting a new me
Do I like the person I’m meeting – do I not like the person I’m meeting?
The answer is unknown,
The only thing that’s certain is that it’s me