Platonic love

Sorry I stopped checking up on you...

Sorry I stopped calling,

Sorry I stopped texting,

Sorry I stopped actually trying to be part of your life,

Sorry I stopped being the guy you met, the guy you knew - the guy you thought I could and would be...

It's just that I've been caught up with my own shit

I've been dealing with my own emotions and trying to get a hold of my thoughts

I couldn't get myself to ask you "are you okay?"...

When I haven't been okay myself

I couldn't be your strong shoulder to lean on ...

When I've been crying myself to sleep at night

Sorry I couldn't be a friend...

I mean how could I after all?

When I haven't been my own friend for a very long time

That's why I started checking in with myself

I took some time out - some time away from you

Just so I could understand myself better

So I wouldn't come to you broken

So you wouldn't see that your "strong" friend isn't so strong after all

So you wouldn't have an extra burden to carry ...

I never want to make your life heavy

And I'd never want to put that weight on you

So I thought it'd be best if I keep my energy away

Not let my demons anywhere near your beautiful light

And for the distance I've created between us - I'm sorry

For the neglected bonding - I'm sorry

For everything else that words cannot cover - I am sorry

I just really really really want my friend back